For what it's worth, I'm back. And just as inactive as ever. Let's just say I've done a lot of growing up... And the next time I feel ANYONE is pushing me around in a relationship, that all I feel like I may as well be to someone is a trained goddamn dog, to hell with 'em. True relationships... REAL love, involves no small amount of respect... Even if in a relationship the two, or more, have the roles of master and slave, or any other such kink to it. I am happy to say I'm in a loving relationship now... Yes, it has multiple layers to it, one can say... Yes, I'm essentially the pet of a pet, and have pets of my own, I will not name names, so do not bother asking. But, it is love, caring, and yes, RESPECT. Those who are submissive respecting those that they allow to dominate them, and the dominants respecting those who give such a gift as they have... Respecting emotional needs, being there for each other, even if at times it may not be the most convenient... Actually making an investment in the relationship... Instead of having those involved feel like they're there mainly because they're a nice, easy little piece of action that you can keep trained to be nice and docile, and beat back into place if they get uppity.