Someone who is both the love and light of my life has had to move to Japan currently, from what I have heard from her, so she can heal and recover from the various ordeals she has gone through in her life... So that we may actually be able to be together happily once she has recovered... I do not doubt her in the least when it comes to this... Unfortunately, fear can lurk even when doubt isn't present... Trying to cause it in a way.
I have no reason to doubt her location or her reason for being there. My beloved has been truthful with me always. But since she left on Black Friday... The Friday following Thanksgiving here in the United States... The most recently I've heard from her has been two weeks previously... Each week has felt like a month without being able to hear from her... I know she's likely busy, and recovering from many things as well... Spiritually, mentally, and physically... I know this is a very taxing time for her... And that... I should have been e-mailing her more as well... I'm just... I'm just scared to death I'm going to lose my beloved kitten, the love of my life, the star of my eye, the light of my heart. To what? I don't know! Maybe that she's had the time during this time to recover to realize that she can do so much more better than me... Maybe that she just realizes that she's just had it with men and wants to be a shrine maiden for the rest of her life or something... I have no idea... All I know is that honestly... I'm scared... And I need to hear from her, more than anything...